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The Liberties Of A People Never Were, Nor Ever Will Be, Secure,When The Transactions Of Their Rulers May Be Concealed From Them.

A Day In The Life
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Well... the last 24hrs... wow... It is amazing how Elohim works to get your attention...

I've had my wife chastized for things that she has no control over by a person who refuses to accept responsibility for the problems that exist in their own life. I decided to go to one of the Messianic Synagogues in the area with my oldest son and a couple of the younger children. The music was great, the liturgy was uplifting and helpful.. It all brought tears to my eyes. Even the Rabbi's teaching was like he had written his drash specially for me.

Maybe, just maybe, I spend too much time trying to get ahead in this world, seeking some form of success that I think will make my wife and my children happy... All the while ignoring them while I try to achive this nebulous status.

It seems that I work all the time... I run a small publishing company - bringing religious materials to the community... I work a full time job that is beyond stressful... I also have a series of side contracts that I need to support... I run a small virtual hosting company with around a hundred or so hosted domains. All this and I don't appear to be getting ahead at all...

Plus, my main job has indicated that is in my "best interest" to continue getting training and improving my skill sets in after hours training - so Unix scripting classes 2 nights a week in the evening..

Work, work, work... no time for family, no time for me, and even more sad... no time for study and prayer... I thank Elohim for my commute time, because I can pray then...

This week alone, 6 people have asked me how I do it...

I don't know...I get up at 4:30 every morning and am usually found asleap in front of my computer at midnight... I suppose that one day I'll be found dead there... Not the way I want to go, but what can I do...

Under paid, over worked...

I guess I'm just tired... And I suspect there are 3-4 million others out there that are struggling just like me.. And they will die like me... Never seeing the fruition of their labor.. Believing they are doing the best for their wives and children.. But never giving them what they really need...

I pray for help. For better work.. For less stress.. And also for the love of my family... For health.. And for so much more... and amazingly, Elohim answers my prayers... Why?.. I am a nobody.. a simple man who is seeking a simpler life... I am no great scholar (but have friends who are), no great musician (but have friends who are), no great teacher (but have friends who are), I hate to do speaches, so I will probably never be a great public personality... I am just trying to do the right things for Elohim, for the community, for my family, and maybe one day, I'll get around to doing the right thing for me...